Hati

I am amazed by how He guides my heart.

Sometimes, when I read back what I have wrote in my blog / tumblr/ journal, I'll be like
"I wrote that? Really? O.o"

You know why? Because I am amazed by the words chosen by 'me' and those words somehow touched my heart.

But then again, I know, those words were not from me. It was from Him. He guided my heart. He was the one who gave the idea to me on what to write.

Have you heard this saying;

"If you write from your heart, then it will touch other people's heart"

Now who is the controller of our heart? Who is the one who holds our heart?

It is none other than Allah.

That's why, when you wanna write, write from your heart. And if people praise you because of your words, don't be too proud, because it is Him who guides your heart and it is Him who guides you to write.

To be frank, when it comes to the matter of heart, I leave it up to Him. Because I know He's the One who guides my heart and only Him can protect my heart.

So maybe. if anyone of you is facing a problem with the issue of heart, it is time for you to trust Him, leave everything to Him, and just surrender. Know that everything is in His control and everything happens for a reason.

The word is redha.

Make do'a to Him to give you tranquility and redha in whatever He decrees for you. Trust me, the next time something afflicts you, your heart will be at ease and you wont be stressed / sad / mad / tension etc. Dont you want that? :)

Trust Him.

and Allah knows best, till then assalamualaikum :)

When we can't forgive..

Know that there's a sickness in our heart.

Orang yang senang menangis in public tak semestinya dia tu mempunyai hati yang lembut. Mungkin menangis tu salah satu cara dia nak lepas kan geram or marah.

Macam mana hati orang yang lembut ni? Hati orang yang lembut is the mix of these two; easy to forgive and mudah menangis. Mudah menangis to whom? To Our Creator. One very obvious example is our Prophet SAW. He forgave everyone who has wronged him though he never do harm to others and Rasulullah juga mudah menangis. While everyone was sound asleep at night, Rasulullah bangun malam untuk qiamulail and he cried to His creator. He complaint his worry and sadness about his ummah to His creator. Maybe ada banyak cara lagi untuk tahu jenis hati yang lembut but this is my way of understanding, this is how I understand it, so I'm here to share it with you. (Please note that this is an experience-based talk)

Maybe if we believe that everything happens by His will, every tests you face, every unpleasant human being's behavior, is all a test from Him, and a way of purifying your sins, it will be easy for you to let go. Let go of what? Let go of whatever it is that is bothering you; anger, rage, sadness, etc.

Trust me, I've learnt the hard way. I've learnt that even perangai manusia is a test for you. True, bukan senang nak sabar dengan kerenah manusia, but that's how you can practice patience. Sabar, fikir that this person is sent by Him to test your patience so you can practice your patience in order to be a better person. Sabar, fikir that mungkin this person is a test for you to purify your sins. Don't you want your sins to be forgiven by Allah? I do.  

And, forgive. Untuk apa nak forgive? Untuk Dia. Sebab apa? again, everything happens by His will, so benda yang jadi tu mesti bersebab. Mesti Allah let that thing to happen ada sebab. So, in order for us to gain His pleasure, redha lah dengan apa yang jadi. Be a servant yang whatever happens pon, no matter how bitter it is to swallow you will be able to have patience. Senang je cakap kan, sabar. Tapi senang ke nak sabar?

Senang if we are grateful. Grateful macam mana? Kalau kita fikir, ada orang kena test lagi teruk dari kita. We would be so grateful with our test kalau kita tengok our brothers and sisters in Syria, Palestina, Sri Lanka, Rohingya etc yang kena test lagi teruk dari kita. Latest news, adik beradik yang hilang parents in a split second sebab accident. Tinggi dugaan dorang, nak compare dengan kita ni, apa lah sangat. Nak compare dengan dugaan faced by our Prophets tu lagi lah, macam macam kerenah manusia they had to face. Yet they remained patient. Kita ni, apa lah sangat? Memang la rasa sakit. Dah nama pon test, a trial for you, to see whether this trial will make you closer to Him or the other way round. To see macam mana character kita untuk handle test ni.

Ever heard of these sayings?

"Forgive others as much as you want Allah to forgive you''

"Forgiveness doesn't excuse their behavior. Forgiveness prevents their behavior from destroying your heart"

"Forgiveness is a gift you gift to yourself"

Now why are these quotes stated that forgiveness is something related to ourselves and not the person that has wronged us? It is because forgiveness is a cure. A cure for what? A cure for your heart. 

• When you forgive, there's no rage in your heart, there's no anger in your heart. Know that these attributes only contribute to harden your heart.

• When you forgive, you will be able to face this person, again. Whenever you meet them, you will be able to smile at them, you will be able to continue your relationship as usual. Instead of bermasam muka, which leads to darken the heart, you choose to make things better, by what? by forgiving them. 

another quote that relates to yourself is:

"The best way to be able to forgive someone is to make sincere do'a for them"

Now tell me, when you're in anger, can you make a sincere good do'a to someone? No. The least do'a you could do is that you pray, hoping that Allah will give them hidayah or understanding, but are you sincere in making do'a to them? Or you're just too angry so you make sarcastic do'a? You know, these:

"Yelah, moga Allah bagi hidayah kat kau lepas ni bagi kau buka hati sikit .."

"Apa apa lah, semoga Allah bagi kau kefahaman ye"

No, it doesn't work that way. It only lead you to have more anger in your heart. In order to make sincere do'a for them so you could forgive them is that, you have to realise, people make mistake, and these people were sent to you to test you (notice how many times I use the word test), they were sent to test your patience, and they were sent by Him to you. and thus, this test could be one of His ways to purify you from your sins (bersangka baik dengan Allah), and of course you want your sins to be forgiven by Him right? and so, you need to forgive them and make do'a that Allah will grant them the understanding AND make do'a to Allah to grant you patience in dealing with human beings.

Now let me share you one hadith

In a narration by Al-Tabarani, Prophet Muhammad says:

“Shall I tell you something that will make your palaces in Paradise higher and that would raise you in degrees.”

They said:

“Yes.”

He replied:

“To be forgiving and to control one’s self in the face of someone who provokes you. To forgive a person who was unfair or unjust to you, to give someone in need who did not give you when you were in need and to keep contact with someone even though they did not reciprocate it.” source

and an ayat from the Quran

The Quran makes a connection between forgiveness (on our part) and our need for God’s forgiveness. For example in (24:22) “Let them forgive and overlook, do you not wish that Allah should forgive you?” In other words if one wants God to forgive their sins then they should be understanding to other people’s difficulties and forgive them.  source

Ever heard of this;

"The stronger is the one who is quick to forgive"

But why? why the stronger is the one who is quick to forgive and not the one who asks for forgiveness? Because to forgive means to lower down your ego. The fact that you're denying you have ego is a sign that you're ego. Below is a video that I've watched years ago that has changed my ego level and I hope it will do the same to you, it's a worth-watching video.

Islam and ego by Nouman Ali Khan

With this, I shall let this video to be the ending of this post. I hope this post is beneficial for all of you. I really do.

And Allah Subhanahu wa ta'ala knows best, till then, assalamualaikum lovelies :)

Feeling, an emotional state or reaction

When it comes to feeling, it's something we can't control. I believe feelings are from Him. It's there because of Him. because ya know, He's the One who holds our hearts. and the feeling won't be there if He does not allow it. It's there because He allows it to be there. I'm talking about positive feelings of course, not negative ones.

and feelings too can be deleted easily by His will and by His help. It's proven though. Long time ago, I once had this feeling to one guy, and my mother taught me to pray istikharah to see if he's the right person for me (that was the first time I prayed istikharah btw) and guess what, the next day, the burden that I felt in my heart was gone. The feeling magically disappeared just like that. From that I know he was not the one for me (thank God)

when it comes to feelings, just pray to Allah whether to make it stay or disappear. you can also pray to Allah to make the negative feelings disappear. This is because, according to the story told by Habib Ali, Rasulullah had a wife named Ummu Salamah (Hindun) and she was a jealous person. and so, Rasulullah prayed to Allah to take away her jealousy and she wasn't that jealous anymore after that. Please do not hesitate to correct me if I'm wrong about this story as this is what I wrote in my notebook.

As for me, when it comes to feeling, I will always depend on Him. Because I'm scared of getting my heart broken again. And I'm scared of falling for the wrong guy. You can pretty much say that I've had enough and I've learnt my lesson. and thus, whenever I start to even have a crush on someone, I will pray istikharah, and I will do it so many times until I get the signs from Him. Most of the signs that I get are through feelings.

One fact you should know about istikharah. When you pray istikharah, you're putting your trust in Him, you trust Him as your decision maker, you trust Him to make the best decision for you, and you want His help to know what is the best for you. Bottom line, you just trust Him.

I really wanna suggest you, especially girls to always pray istikharah when it comes to feeling. You don't wanna get your heart broken again don't you? so try to depend on Him. Starting with this :) and trust me, when you pray istikharah, you know that He's the One who will handle your affairs. So by that, if the guy that you're praying istikharah for, is not the right person for you, you'll be okay, because you've already put your trust in Him and you know he's not for you because He says so and He knows what's best for you. Who else knows you the best and understands you the most besides your Maker, right? ;)

Just make sure when you make istikharah, to use the do'a for istikharah. If you don't memorise it, you can just say it in your language :)

Just wanted to share something. I really hope it will benefit you :)

Men

I've had enough of men trying to tell us (women) that we should guard our modesty, we should cover our aurah etc. Now let me shift the focus to men.

Looking at men these days, with the influence of social networking sites and the advancement of smartphones, and the number of pretty women are increasing, I have doubts in trusting them (if inshaAllah I'll get married to one) regardless whether he's a practicing muslim or not.

Why? Because Rasulullah said the biggest fitnah to men is women. Yes, we should cover our aurah, yes, we should guard our modesty, yes we shouldn't upload our pictures on instagram, facebook, twitter etc.

But you, should lower your gaze. Stop putting the blame on women.

You should lower your gaze regardless wherever you are. I know it's hard. But it's gonna be easy IF you practice it and if you're determined to lower your gaze for the sake of pleasing Him. (that's a true practicing muslim)
and you should know that lowering your gaze does not apply when you are at the streets only. It should be applied to social networking as well.

By that I mean,
you don't follow random woman (strangers to be exact)
you don't follow and like and stalk and save their pictures.
even if they post islamic tweets or pictures or whatever, you know they're still gonna upload pictures whether it's their own picture or other woman.

And I know there are some whatsapp groups or so called halaqah group on whatsapp that have both men and women interacting with each other proclaiming that they're helping each other with their deen and helping each other to remember Him. Oh please, if you are truly a man of your deen, you will leave the group.

I'm sorry I just had enough of men telling us to behave. Maybe it's time for you to check on yourselves now.
This fitnah, this women is the biggest fitnah to men, does not mean that we (women) have to do the main role in making sure that you (men) will not involve in this fitnah. In making sure that non of us is involved, both have to be responsible in protecting and guarding ourselves from such fitnah. You have to behave and control yourselves, and we do what we are supposed to do.

I seriously don't feel safe in trusting men these days. They might seem religious or a practicing muslim or maybe not, but in their facebook twitter instagram account, they might follow random beautiful women and been feeding their eyes and nafs by looking at these gorgeous ladies and yet they're still telling women to cover their aurah and all that. [read: the word is might. so this cannot be applied to all men. maybe to some. read again, maybe to some]

You know, if you don't wanna see pictures of women on your instagram account or twitter or wherever, you can simply click on the unfollow button. It's as simple as that. It's up to you to do it or not.

I think I've heard somewhere or maybe I read somewhere, if a man can control himself before marriage, you can count on him after you get married to him. So yeah, just something that I feel the need to let it out of my chest.

He knows.

Allah put you in such situations because Allah knows you can handle it :)

 Be patient yea :)

Women In Islam

The more I learn about Islam, the more I realize how precious a woman is in this world. Women are like diamonds that need to be protected.

They may seem strong, but they’re very fragile inside. To all women out there, take care of your dignity. You are precious & you know that :)

Be careful with your words, don’t gossip around, don’t curse, it is not cool, it shows how dirty your heart is and how you really are inside

If a man compliments your looks, they are physically attracted to you which often leads to lust. You are not a slave for men's lust right? :)

Islam upgrades the status of women. So don’t sell yourself. Don’t crave for compliments from random men. Don’t try to show how pretty you are.

And don’t be proud when a lot of guys want you. It just shows that you are (sorry to say) cheap. "Cheap things attract more buyers", right?

You're not an object that every man can 'try'. You're way more valuable than that. And don't try to seek attention. It makes you look (sorry to say) pathetic.

So be expensive and exclusive because you belong to one man only and not to almost every man you know. Love yourself and respect yourself.

But how do you respect yourself? By not 'selling' your beauty, your aurah to public. How can covering aurah relate to respecting oneself? 

Picture this. A woman who's covering her aurah perfectly walking in a mall. Do you think some losers will check her out? No. Do you think a guy will try to hit on her and get her number? No. Now how do I know this? Because I saw one video this one guy said that whenever he sees a muslim woman covering her aurah walking in front of him, he looks the other way. Why? He said ''there's nothing to look on her''. ( I don't have the video but if I found it I'll share the link inshaAllah )

Now picture this. A woman who's not covering her aurah and is dressing up very sexy (or maybe just casual dressup but she looks very pretty with the make up and all that) Do you think she'll be checked on by some men? Yes. Do you think someone will try to hit on her and maybe get her number? Yes. 

and let say, these guys are not sincere on 'getting to know' her, I mean, they just want to 'try'. What would the girl say? 

"How could he did this me?"
"I can't believe he's one of those jerks"
"I can't believe he was just using me"
"I want someone who would love me like I'm his last love"
"I want someone who would treat me like a princess"
"I just want someone who would respect me"

and the list goes on. but you get what I mean right?

I may be wrong and please correct me if I'm wrong but this is what I've been observing and what I've been trying to understand by respect yourself ( because at first I didn't understand what it means by respecting myself with not getting hit on by some men )

And respecting yourself also means that you don't entertain strangers, by that I mean any man who just want to (again) try you. (notice how often I use this word? please understand why)

for instance, one random man sends you a dm or message on facebook or twitter or just anywhere, and his message is "hey, howya doin'?'' or ''hey, good morning'' or in islamic kind of way would be ''salam sister :) how are you?'' 

You know, by replying to that message, and the fact that you don't even know him, shows how easy you are. Because any man can just get your attention by one ''hey/salam'' in a message.

If you have a sister, don't you want to protect her? Same goes to me.

I'm telling you this because I care about you. Because I want to protect you. Because I love you. And because in Islam, we are all sisters :) but hey, either you're a muslim or not, I still do care. Because why? Because you're a woman, and so am I :)

You may not get it now but you will one day. Trust me, you'll know how valuable and precious you are in this world. So please, take a good care of yourself <3 :)

And that is a message to all women from a woman :)

My Hijra

I have always wanted to wear hijab since I was in Foundation and I’ve always wanted to learn more about my religion but my surrounding at that time wasn’t really supportive. So I kind of ‘postponed’ the intention.

It all started with a crisis that I faced when I was in 2nd year, an undergraduate student in International Islamic University Malaysia. I must say that was really REALLY a big test for me.

I didn’t share my problems with my Uni friends at that time. So basically you can say that I faced the obstacles alone. I kept it inside. Didn’t wanna tell anyone. Well I did tell my non-uni friends about it, only two of them, and my mom but I didn’t really share the whole thing you know.

That thing that has happened back then was really an eye opener for me. I’ve learned a lot from it. 

So what made me turned back to Him? How did I find out my peace? :)

Like I said before, I was alone. I faced the obstacle alone and kept it inside. It was really really a hard time for me. I even thought of changing to another university because I couldn’t stand it. I was weak. BUT, that was how I found my peace and strength :)

First of all, I started to wear the hijab exactly like the one He orders us to. I started to cover my chest. And then slowly, I turned to Him. I complaint to Him. I started to make Him as my best friend. The One I share my problems with. Wherever I go I always have this conversation with Him, like let say I wanna drive back from Uni to home, so in my heart I would say:

“Ya Allah, let me arrive there safely for You’re the best Protector”

And, because of that, I started to depend on Him, and I became strong. I never thought I could be that strong. You know why? Because I kept telling this to myself;

"Don’t worry, you may not have anyone right now, but if you remember Him, He will remember you and will always be with you" 

Since then, the crisis was like some dusts on my shoulder I could just wipe it off just like that. And also, one of the many things that has kept me going strong was this;

The Prophet (peace be upon him) said: “When Allah desires good for someone, He tries him with hardships.” [Sahîh al-Bukhârî]

I read this somewhere and I was like:

"He wants good for me? Really? That’s just awwwww :””) " 

haha well, I love to talk myself so yeah. And yes. It really touched my heart :)

As some might have already known that I love to walk alone in the university. Anywhere I go I don’t mind going alone by myself. And guess what? That was one of the many things that has helped me in changing myself to be better. Because whenever I am alone, I remember Him. I trained myself to remember Him because by that I know, He will remember me. I wanted to be loved by Him so much that I trained myself to do things which He loves.
So basically one of the many simple things to do is to remember Him as often as I could. And trust me, by remembering Him, you will always have this peace and comfort in your heart and you will forget all of the problems you have in this world.

So you can say after that, my focus was not on the problems anymore. My focus was to gain His love. So what did I do?

I started to pray on time. I started to pray in congregational. I used to hate praying in congregational because you know, the imam will take a long time to recite the al Fatihah and other surahs, but surprisingly, the love for praying in jamaah has started to blossom in my heart and until now, the love is still in me and I thank Allah for that <3

And after that, in order for me to not cling to any of these weak worldly stuffs, I refrained myself from watching movies and listening to songs (for quite some time). Love songs especially. Because it will only make you weak. Even I changed my radio station to Ikim. No longer listening to flyfm, hitzfm etc. Also, I was afraid of going back to jahiliyah life so I unfollowed all those nonsense ( twitter + tumblr + facebook ) accounts and started to follow all the Islamic accounts only, especially on twitter. So that whenever I check my timeline, there will always be something that reminds me of Him. And another one, I just had to mute some of the people that I follow on twitter who just can’t stop cursing -.- hehe Sorry, but it was for my own good.

Anyway it was really a struggle for me to pray on time. At the very beginning, there were times when I purposely delay my prayers. Like you know,

“10 minutes more, I just need to rest first, just 10 minutes more and then I’ll pray”

And every time, I kid you not, every time I purposely delay my prayers, there will be news about death or earthquake. And earthquake is one the many signs of The Hour , how scary… :/

BUT! because of that, my struggle of trying to pray on time became easier. It’s like, His way of ‘helping’ me get what I mean? :) Sweet isn’t it? :) <3

So, that’s just how I came crawling back to Him? Now, how did I istiqamah (and still trying) in everything that I do?

Well, firstly, when you enter a new ‘club’ alone, you gotta make friends right? Yes, that’s what I did. I made friends with the pious people because I know they’re the ones who can lead me closer to Him. And you know what, mashaAllah, they really helped me in terms of shaping my character and my understanding of Islam. I’ve learnt a lot from them. Such beautiful characters mashaAllah. And I can say that they were the reason why I wanted to beautify my character. They inspired me, a lot :)

And those girls are my precious pearls I would never want to lose <3

Okay, secondly, I attended as many Islamic lectures as I could. Far or near, night or day, alone or with friends, I would still go because I know by doing that I will inshaAllah obtain His love. And at the same time the angels are there and my sins will be forgiven too. Plus, I wanted to be the chosen one by Him to attend Islamic lectures. Haha so much for wanting His attention huh?

Wait, you know that feeling of disappointment when you’re trying to seek someone else’s attention but they just ignore you? Yep, with Him. You will never be disappointed <3 trust me. So seek the attention of the Creator instead of the creations :)

Lastly, I must say the next hadith has got to be one of the strongest reasons why I wanted to istiqamah (and still trying, make doa for me <3) in everything:

Rasulullah saw said: "The deeds most loved by Allah (are those) done regularly, even if they are small." (Bukhari, Muslim)

Soooooooo, yes, you can pretty much say that my journey was all about attaining His pleasure and I really ( hope + inshaAllah + please make doa for me <3 ) that I will get it as I’m still working hard to attain His love, inshaAllah. Let’s do this together shall we? :)

Sometimes, when I flash back and remember the catastrophe I had to encounter 2 years + ago (it happened in 2012), I didn’t regret it happen. Not a single thing for it has led me to what I am today. Everything happens for a reason. And every good and bad thing comes from Him. And I believe that was one of His ways of guiding me back to Him. Whatever it is, you just have to be positive ;)

So I guess that’s just it. Now I want to list down some of the lessons that I’ve learned throughout this beautiful journey which I hope will inspire you inshaAllah :)

• Focus on building a strong relationship with Him. Stop depend on creations. You know when you’re sad you tend to listen to music that is suitable with your mood at that time? STOP. Stop doing that. It doesn’t help you to be strong. It will only gonna make you weak. Your soul will become weak. Why do I say this? Let me share a few lines from Nouman Ali Khan’s khutbah:

“All of us are seeking something. Because you are always in need of something you are weak. Allah needs nothing. And then you go and seek those things from anything other than Allah and all of those things are also weak.
We are weak because the people we ask from, and the source we expect from they are also weak. When we learn to ask from Allah who is strong we will become strong. We are weak because what we ask from is weak.”

Now do you get me? So, take a break from whatever it is that you like to depend on and start making Him your source of strength. And always consult with Your Maker no matter what. Even it is just:

“Ya Allah, should I buy this black shoe or the red one? Help me Ya Robb only You know what’s best for me”

Yeap.

• Make 5-daily-prayer your top priority. Whatever happens, pray first. Always train yourself to feel uncomfortable when you hear the azan 15 minutes ago but you still haven’t stepped on your prayer mat. Plan your day around salah time. Always, I mean it, always plan when and where you’re gonna pray next. If you can plan when and where you’re gonna have your lunch or dinner, why can’t you plan for your salah, right? Because that way if anything happens you already know the place you’re gonna pray. And please, you know that you can pray ANYWHERE. Not just your room. There is always the nearest musolla and there is always the nearest masjid. Wherever you go, just be alert of those two and of course, the prayer times. That way you don’t have to rush looking for one. And if you’re dealing with unimportant stuffs like watching your favourite tv series, scrolling your (twitter’s + instagram’s + facebook’s) timeline, etc, please, that thing can wait. But not death. So pray first! :D

• Find friends who want to go on this journey as badly as you do (but don't leave your old friends, they NEED you, and you NEED new friends). If you’re not that friendly then force yourself to be friendly. No matter how lame or loser you think these pious people are, know that they are the ones who will help you getting closer to Him. And they are the ones who will pray for you no matter what. Because why? Your motive and theirs are the same, which is to please the Creator. That way, whatever good deeds they do, they’ll invite you. You need to ask for those kind of friends. If you’re sincere in coming back to Him, I’m pretty sure He’ll help you and will send you them.

  Let me just share you this one hadith and its very brief description:

Prophet Muhammad (saws) said: “A person is likely to follow the faith of his friend, so look whom you befriend”

Humans have always been social creatures and in need of friends and companions. Much of our lives is spent in interaction with others. For us Muslims, the issue of choosing the right companions is essential for preserving our Deen. Befriending righteous and virtuous Muslims is an essential means for staying on the straight path.

From Imam Suhaib Webb’s website:

Good friends who prioritize their relationship with Allah will help us on the spiritual path. It is easier to pray and to do our everyday acts of worship because we have company to help us. Even when we face difficulties, these friends will support us; ultimately they will remind us of Allah during these tests and help us to rely on Him. No one is perfect, and this is why it is important to be around people who want to improve themselves, and in the process will help you to improve yourself too.Ibn Hazm stated:

 “Anyone who cares about your friendship is willing to criticize you, while those who make light of your faults show they do not care.”

Plus, it’s always fun knowing other people’s weird characters and learning their life experience :)

• Don’t grief whenever hardships strike upon you. Know that He has His attention on you. Well, of course it is hard when you’re in trouble but as for me, one of the many things that has kept me going strong throughout this adventure was:

Allah's Apostle said, "No calamity befalls a Muslim but that Allah expiates some of his sins because of it, even though it were the prick he receives from a thorn."  

And of course, first time I read this I was like :’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’’) haha -.-

But yes, don’t grief. Always be positive. And don’t get angry. Even it is just... let say, you wanna go out but your car is being blocked by another car. Don’t get angry. This might be one of His tests for you. And remember that every good and bad thing comes from Him. If it’s bad, it’s a test, a means of purifying yourself :) if it’s good, it’s a blessing inshaAllah. I saw this somewhere on my dashboard:

“The more test you are facing, the more sins you are reducing”

“Say Alhamdulillah even for the bad. As hard as it might be to believe, it could have been much worse”

True, no? So always, ALWAYS believe that whenever you’re in trouble, big or small, it is Him trying to remove your sins. Isn’t that sweet? Don’t you want your sins to be removed and cleared? I know it’s not that easy to remain calm but why don’t you apply this in your life and see what happens, yea? :)

Pretty long essay don’t you think? Haha this is my second time writing my story as the first time, half or should I say almost all of it went missing -.- so basically I’m rewriting this again. It’s okay, maybe He was testing me the other day :)

I really hope this will inspire you inshaAllah and please don’t praise me, make doa’ for me instead as I’m still struggling to stay on this straight path and to istiqamah in everything. To end this, I wanna invite you to join this beautiful adventure of mine in obtaining His love, shall we? :D

If I have free time, inshaAllah and biiznillah, I will share my story from not-wearing-socks-and-handsocks to fulltime wearing them :) and if you have any questions, feel free to ask hehe ;>

By the way, don’t you notice that earthquake is everywhere now? Something to ponder upon 

Till then, assalamualaikum lovelies :)